..

I have nothing left.

Focus.

Final exams are on the way here.. less than 1 month i guess? its like that minus all the holidays and saturdays and sundays.. im losing my focus on my studies already.. i cant seem to absorb already.. its like everytime i try to open the book.. im reading yes im reading but it seems like my mind turns blank and i cant think of anything.. my apetite is also getting smaller and smaller.. without eating i always get headache.. i think because i need alot of sugar in my blood.. without it i will get heavy headaches and start feeling like vomitting.. its normal i guess.. im having headaches more regularly now.. i dont seem to talk much too.. it seems like life is getting older and older and its getting more and more scary.. and i feel so down most of the time now.. i feel that im quite weak in form of mentally and physically.. and i cant really stand of my own for some time now already.. i hope and pray that you are doing well there.. i cant really get enough sleep which makes me feel headache and tired most of the time in the day which makes me talk less and do things less which just brings me to just sitting on the chair staring at the walls.. i guess im gonna get a sucky week this week and next week.. next week? supposed to be happy? but well.. it sucked.

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My life is full of dots...............................

Life.

Life SUCK.

Sorry.

Some people said Its never too late to apologize, just start with a sorry. Is that true? Can that happen? I mean it happened many times in my life. But sometimes people just wont accept it right? So we have to just tolerate with the up's and down's of our lifes i feel. I always feel freaky and scare but well sometimes i feel safe and happy. What about you? What about now? I am not so sure about what im feeling now.

28th of August.

Happy Birthday to my old friend, Kazuki. Met him in a game called Pirate King Online long time ago. Till now we are still friends. Dota pro. Sk team player.


Here we go !

Enjoy.

Till then.

Normal Day.

Well school was normal as usual.. nothing much happened.. just sat in the class and just listen to the teacher talking and doing our own works.. and then packed bag and went home.. exams are like so near and im not ready for it at all.. but its never too late to just catch up a little bit.. so its worth trying.. so i will try.. without doubting.. hehehehehe.. i think my finals are in the middle September.. so i pray and hope that i will be ready for it. Till then.

27th of August.

Happy birthday to Ernest How. Hope you enjoy your day.


Ini dia.

Next is Jessica ! Happy Birthday. Hope you enjoy your day too.


This is the only picture i can find her taking picture alone.

Till then.

26th of August.

Happy birthday toooo Kelsey Koh. Its been nice knowing you.


This is it.

Till then.

Lucky. Lucky. Lucky.

Im lucky.. but also unlucky at times..
Im lucky that im patience..
Im lucky that i realise things..
Im lucky that i can tolerate..
Im lucky that im okay..
Im lucky to get her..
Im unlucky at times..
Hard times..
Bad times..
Easy times..

What about you? Lucky or unlucky?

Birthday !

I would like to say Happy Birthday to Ng Vin Teng.. her birthday is today that is 25th of August.


She finally turned sixteen. Happy Sweet Sixteen.

Till then.

Grateful and Thankful.

Thanks thanks thanks a lott for all the help people.. Thanks thanks thanks a lott for the advice people.. Thanks thanks thanks a lott for forgiving me and giving me a chance people.. Thanks thanks thanks a lott for being understanding and being there for me.. Thanks thanks thanks a lott for everything you people did for me.. Im really grateful and thankful for everything that has happened.. It was made me realise and change ! Yes ! And I made it and Im not gonna stop here but to keep on improving myself ! Yes yes yes and yes again ! Thanks all !

Seven. Tujuh. 7.

I been tagged by Lydia. She wants me to do it. So i have to do it. And i already done this tag in the past post.

tujuh fakta tentang saya.
1.Saya sayang akan Tuhan.
2.Saya sayang akan Hsiao Hwen.
3.Saya suka main futsal.
4.Saya suka kawan-kawan saya.
5.Saya suka musik.
6.Saya sayang ayahku.
7.Saya bersekolahan.

tujuh perkara yang menakutkan saya.
1.Hantu.
2.Hsiao Hwen.
3.Bapa.
4.Abangku.
5.Kakakku.
6.Kawan-Kawanku.
7.Diri saya.

tujuh lagu buat masa sekarang.
1.Florida-Rendah.
2.ACDC-Bomb.
3.Satu Republik-Maaf.
4.MainSejuk-Viva la Vida.
5.Daft Punk-Keras,Lebih Baik,Cepat Lagi,Lebih Kuat.
6.ACDC vs Eminem.
7.TerJatuh Budak-Pukul Ia.

tujuh perkara yang selalu saya sebut.
1.hello.
2.Tak tau.
3.Maaf.
4.Terima Kasih.
5.Gemuk.
6.Woi.
7.Aper?

tujuh perkara yang amat bernilai.
1.Ayahku.
2.Tuhan.
3.Hsiao Hwen.
4.Abangku, William.
5.Kakak-kakakku.
6.Abang-abangku.
7.Kawan-kawanku.

tujuh kali pertama dalam hidup saya.
1.Bergaduh.
2.Menafas.
3.Suka perempuan.
4.Keluar rumah.
5.Bekerja.
6.Pergi beli belah seorang diri.
7.Main komputer.

tujuh orang yang bertuah:
1.Tiada.
2.Tiada.
3.Tiada.
4.Tiada.
5.Tiada.
6.Tiada.
7.Tiada.

Alamak.. semua dah buat tag ini.

School Reopens !

Its the end of the holiday.. and school is reopening tomorrow.. I just got ready for school today.. packed everything in order.. make sure my uniforms are ironed and well placed.. cleaned my room.. i guess i am ready for tomorrow? hehehehe. and final exams are coming in less than a month i think? Im not that sure but i think so.. soooo.. i better be prepared and study more and play less dota than i usually have played.. and holiday was kind of boring.. as expected it to be so.. and i didnt do much.. just sit infront of the computer then switching to the tv.. and then back to the computer and then back.. i downloaded 21 yesterday.. it was a great show.. and it was a very nice nice nice show.. har har har har.. glad i got to download and enjoyed it.. i think im gonna download Zohan too soon.. but i got to prepare for my exams.. and something is coming in my way.. hope it would be a great one lets hope hope hope.. hehehehehe.. i hope that end year holidays are gonna be fun. Till then.

Happy 1 Month Baby !

We been already 1 month together and many more to go. I miss you badly now. And I love you !

Leo Futsal Tournament.

Today which is the 22nd of August.. The Leo Club of SMK La Salle organized a Futsal Tournament consist of 7 players per team.. 5 players will play in the court and 2 as subs.. it costs RM60 per team.. and it is held at Real Sports Arena. There were about 20 over teams there.. So they had alot of Groups which is A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H i think? this much ? im not sure. Sundra was the main organizer and was helped by the fellow Leo's.. the matches were fantastic and it all went smoothly excepted some parts.. but still it went to a success.. I went back half way around 4pm and it was still in the quater final stage so i could not watch the finals which is held in the international court if i was not mistaken ? So i guess the futsal tournament ended at night.. The first prize was RM500, I think the second was RM200 or 250.. and 3rd was RM100.. so if you had a good team and you won the tournament.. it would be nice.. hehehe.. so the tournament was great and there were many good teams from all over Klang and some from Subang.. so i had fun.

Wall-E.

Wall-E was greatttt.. it was totally great.. it was fun and also has sad parts.. Glad to watch it with you all. Thanks for companying me.

Sports Planettttt.

Sports planetttt was great.. Outside was fine but inside it is more FINE. And i gain alot of experience there. Thanks Janus. Thanks Sky. Thanks Joshua. The team was great. The players was great. The teamwork was great. Thanks alot. Hope to go and play there again. And its not that expensive. So its great. Nice people there. Till then.

Tagged by Lydia Phuah.

1.If your lover betrayed you , what will your reaction be ?
I will get angry. har har.

2.If you can have a dream to come true , what would it be ?
Everyone to be happy.

3.What will your dream wedding to be like ?
I think i will get marry somewhere everybody will be at.

4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you ?
Nahhh. Be positive and think positively. Do it positively.

5.What's your ideal lover like ?
Someone like her. Someone that can really understands me deeply. Someone that never let go easily. Someone that have a sense of care. Someone that i can depend on. Someone that has a self character.

6.Which is more blessed ? Loving someone or being loved by someone ?
I would say more to loving someone that you can love and care for rather than the person gone.. But i would say being loved is also not that bad.

7.How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Not long but i would wait for a moment.

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached , what would you do ?
Stay away and keep safe.

9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days ?
Yeap. Something personal.

10.Is being tagged fun ?
Sometimes..

11.How do you see yourself in 10 years time ?
Successful and rest in peace.

12.Who are currently the most important people to you ?
My Dad. My God. My Baby. My Grandmother.

13.What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is ?
Lydia: Never a good person. (jokingg)

14.Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor ?
I rather be married but poor but somehow I will be loaded.

15.What's the first thing you do every morning ?
Let my water out.

16.Would you give all in a relationship ?
Depends on my girl.

17.If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick ?
I will pick the person which can click with me better.

18.What type of friends do you like ?
Any type.

19.What type of friends do you dislike ?
Dunno.

20.Tag 8 people.
-Penny Ng.
-Tan U-Zhing.
-Soya Soe.
-Sabash.
-Aravind.
-Yao Chang.
-Christopher Tan.
-Elaine Lee.

Saturdayyyy.

Oh ya.. i forgot to update about saturday.. well i went for Kwang hua's iu day.. it was kind of okay okay only? the crowd was not that happening i can say.. it was not full.. the dress code was formal so i could see alot of people wearing dress? but well i did not obey thier dress code.. just simply wear only la.. har har.. they had performances such as dances and some actings.. after that i went to pyramid around 4 reached there around 6.. and met up with Tommy there.. had dinner there then after that walked with Tommy and got all his stuffs then we sat a while and drank and talked.. after that we went back around 10.. reached home around 10.20.. It was kind of late to go already but still i promised Tommy i will be there so i just went ahead with the plans.

Boredom.

Its a holiday.. and i have not gone out of the house yet.. man its boring.. there is no where to go.. no place to go.. i wanna go out and have fun at least go to somewhere.. im fill with boredom right now.. i have nothing to do at home.. my computer cant support any games.. i have no astro at home so i cant oftenly watch olympic games.. so i guess all i can do is just study and study and study. Oh ya. I downloaded Doomsday and watched.. all those Biohazard people are Punked.. so cool.. well its nice to watch.. tomorrow will be another free day so i plan to download Wall-E to watch? hehehehe.

Missing in action.

I guess i have been away for a long time.. im not seen in any places.. i want to stay at home first.. rest in peace at home for a while.. relax for a while.. chill for a while.. missing in action for a while.. lets rest and spend time with daddy ! hehehehe.

Soyaaaaaa.

After hearing Soya's story.. i guess there are quite a lot of people out there who are like me right? Almost the same thing but just different story earlier and the background is a little different.. but you know when we know that we are not like how different from other people.. we start to believe that there are people who really understand what we feel and what we experience before.. wahahaha.. i thought there were so little people like me.. but now after i see the overall i realise that quite a sum of my friends are like me? good thing i realise and understand now.. now im trying to make my dad happy with me everytime by staying at home and eating dinner with him.. we do argue at times but after 1 or 2 hours we will be talking like normal again so i guess it is okay? at least i spend time eating dinner with him than going out eating with my friends.. i guess i did my responsibility on that.. spend a little quality time.. if can i would make it to shopping malls with him to help him carry things or even teman him to buy his groceries.. and sometimes i will help him cook in the kitchen.. thats where i learnt how to cook curry chicken and more.. i actually learned alot during this time when i was with my dad.. it was all 1 on 1 so it was easier to learn and know compared if i had brothers or sisters.. but well as not having brothers and sisters you also know how it feels la.. quite sien one at home alone nothing to do and just staring at the mirror or walls.. or just play with power rangers or even just play with the things my dad bought or gave me during my birthdays.. but there is also good no one to fight with.. but sometimes fightting with brothers and sisters are quite fun you know.. hehehehe.. i never got to experience that.. but i never will ever complain saying why i never experience it all.. because i know i got this life i should learn how to take good care of it rather than complaining all the time about this.. it already happened.. nothing can be done.. imagine if i had no dad.. thats worse again.. some people dont even have parents.. thats worse than me so i dont think my case was the worse case senario.. where i go i try to learn as much as i can.. where i go i try to make as many friends as i can.. where i go i try to do new things.. experience new things.. get knowledge.. i try and try and try.. like they said never try never know.. so you should try.. some of my friends got into NS i heard.. soo i hope you all dont lost contact after NS okay?? har har.. lets hope so.

Brother.

Im sorry if i ever dissapoint you in any matter. You might think what i say now i dont mean it. But deep in my heart i really want to make you proud and happy with me. My finals are coming and i will show you and prove to you that i mean what i say is true and im not playing the fool anymore. Last time yes.. but now i realise my mistakes.. and i wanna fix myself into a better person so that people can be happy with me. Im sorry if i did not do things like you can do. I know i cant dance or even be like you to be worthy of your brother.. but i will never give up to always improve myself to be like you and make myself worthy to be your brother. I will study hard as you always told me that you want a brighter future for me.. better than you and i always took it inside and did not really listen to it. Im sorry if i was too playful at times.. i know that im always over the limits at times.. but since i know now my mistakes.. i will try my best to change myself to be a better person so that you can be proud and happy with me. I know i made your friends angry with me.. i know what i suppose to do and i will do it so that they can also be happy with me. Like i always say to myself.. There is nothing impossible in this world.. if that person can do it so can you.. so i keep on telling myself that sentence and i will never give up making you look up to me once again.

The Mummy.

I managed to catch a movie before going back from pyramid on Saturday with herrrr, sun woei and shih kiat.. well the movie was not as i expected.. it was nice graphics.. as usual all the movies has those computer edition inside them.. so it is kind of normal.. all the actors in the movie was the same expect the wife of the hero.. and the son finally grew up and do the same job as the dad.. and he was the one who found the tomb of the dragon emperor.. hehehe.. it was okay okay only.. so many mummies came up to fight.. and those mummies some of them dont have legs or hands.. a little crazy but well.. to me it was not that nice maybe to you all it might be nice.. well i wanna catch more movies next like The Midnight Meat Train.. i dunno if it is nice anot.. but well i wanna watch.. and I wanna watch X-files too.. i think i will just get it on the net la.. since its clear and free of charge.. hehehehehe.

School..

I have been abit late on my updates.. well exams just passed it was the last monthly i think.. so next will be finals and im not even ready to face it yet.. i have not studied anything in my books yet.. im quite worried and scared if i dont pass my finals.. somethings might happen and somethings might not happen.. well since i have the time now to stay at home and not go out anymore i can finally sit down and open my books to start studying right? hehehehe.. so soon im gonna just stay at home for 1 month until my finals are over.. to study and study and study and also do some work out myself at home to keep myself fit.. no more modern.. no more autumn.. no more aeoning.. no more sports.. just go if there is special events or just to go and meet her up a while.. but most of the time im sticking at home to be a good boy to my dad and brother to study like nobody's business so cant i can pass my exams.. i got my monthly exams results and i think i did not improve much.. but at least i did increased my marks but i still fail my papers.. and i only have 2 or 3 or 4 papers that i manage to pass with my friend's help.. if not i dont think im gonna pass any papers.. biology, chemistry and physics are not that easy now.. so many calculations.. so many things to memorize.. so many things to understand.. its getting harder but well im not giving up but to push myself to study hard to pass my exams and when holiday comes im planing to work and im gonna fix myself up into a nice piece where i can make people happy with me.. hehehehe.. just pray and hope that i can achieve what i plan to achieve soon.. and school has been involved in many fights i guess.. the indians and malay dare to fight in public now.. they have no scare of teachers nowadays.. i guess school gangsters are getting worse and worse day by day? people are just whacking each races up so that they can prove that thier race are better than the others.. well well well.. in the end both sides will also get hurt right? hehehehehe.. until then.. see you.

I love you.

Babyyyy. Im sorry that if i was too over sometimes. Im sorry if im selfish to think it was always me being the one right. Im sorry if i hurt you or made you angry with me. Im sorry if i did not treat you properly and treated you simply or ingore you at times. Im sorry that i been a bastard for my past. Im sorry if i made your name and reputation fall to the ground. Im sorry if i treated your friends rudely and made them angry with me or even hate me. Im sorry if i was always being stupid. I just hope that you will not get fed up with me and want to be single again. I hope that our relationship can last longer than the other ones i had. I know that you said you cant promise anything but i just hope everyday that you wont leave me one day when you finally get fed up of me. I myself is very scare of that honestly telling you. Im very sorry if i was tell you my things or i always talk cock until you are fed up listening to me. Im sorry if i made you moody or pissy for the day. I wanna say is today was a really great day i had with you. You really made me smile even i was in alot of problems in the past days and you really put a smile on my face today. I dunno i felt very happy being with you. I thought it would be very down and sad day but when i was with you. Everything changed and it was getting really happy and it was great you know. I love you alot and alot. And im sorry and i promise you that i will be a better man, guy, and boyfriend or even friend to you and your friends and to everyone else. Im very grateful and thankful that you are beside me now.

Gwen's Birthdayyyy.

On 2nd of August.. Gwen held her party at her house which is beside Yong Sheng's house.. there were many people there and it was nice and when i got there they already sang the birthday song and blow the candles so i got no chance to sing the birthday song.. and we did not miss Gwen and her friend's dance.. hehehehehe.. It was a great party and in the afternoon My brother, Robyn and me went to aeon and walked around.. did not watch any movies.. and then we went to Gwen's house in the night.

Pictures !


Randomness.


Thier group picture !


Randomness?


Thier group picture again!


Robyn Ng and Nushka Lim !


Tommy Seow and Nushka Lim.


That is Pravind And Brian Daniel !


My sister and the half face Nush.


My sister and me.


Jerry's hand is on fire !


Preveen and blur picture.


The birthday girl ! My sister ! And me !


Saya lor.


Me lor.


Barefoot me.

One of the aunties took my seliper and went dunno where to do something so i had to go to esso mamak at 3 am plus without my selipers. It was fun looking at the aneh laughing at me.

Lastly not lastly. Happy Birthday Gwen.

Birthdays!

Happy birthday to...

Juan Gin which is on the 5th of August.


This is Juan Gin.

Nextt... is...

Eseong ! My long lost friend.. which is on the 6th of August.


Acting cool eh?

Next up is Mima which is also on 6th of August.


Mima.

Next isss Kimberly Seow which is also on 6th of August.


Kimberly Joker?

Next isss Maxwell Yeoh which is also on 6th of August.


So called first picture taken.


Hehehehe.. I think this is all until today.. Make for more days to pass and i will wish more and wish wish wish !
heheehehe.

Tagged by Robyn.

1.At what age you wish to marry?
-At the age that im comfortable and sure with.

2.Will you consider sexual relationships before marriage?
-Maybe or maybe not.

3.Do you smoke?
-Maybe or maybe not.

4.List out two gifts you like to receive now.
-A new hand phone.
-A new wallet or computer.

5.Who did you text mostly lately?
-Penny !

6.How old are you?
-16 ! Not offically 16.

7.What is the latest thing you bought with your own money?
-FOOD !

8.State 3 people of the opposite sex that first comes to your mind. Who will you mostly likely date?
-Penny
-Wynesse
-Robyn
-I dont think i will be dating Robyn or Wynesse.

9.Where do you wish to get married?
-A place that is full with sunshine and all my family members and friends can be there with me.

10.How old do you think you will be parmanently owned by love?
-You will never know when. So do i.

11.How many kids do you want?
-Either 3 or 5.

12.Are you in love?
-Maybe or maybe not.

13.Where is the latest restaurant you have dinner?
-At home.

14.Name the latest book you bought?
-I dunno i dont buy books.

15.Do you believe in God?
-Yes i do.

16.Name your favourite game or sport.
-Game is Counter Strike or Dota! Sport is Futsal or Volleyball or Basketball !

17.Name the first person that comes into your mind now.
-Penny.

18.The most exciting place you want to go?
-Rome or England.

19.Hugs or kisses?
-Both.

20.How do you judge someone? Appearance important?
Attitude. And sometimes his apperance and cleaniness.

21.(BONUS) Point out 5 things about the person who tag you.
Robyn Ng Mei Yin.

1.Flat.
2.Fat.
3.Gong.
4.My sister.
5.Small.

I tag:
nobody ! lazy la.

Tujuh. Tagged after a long time.

fakta tentang saya

1.saya budak bodoh
2.saya kelihatan bodoh
3.saya suka tidur
4.saya tak reti tulis bahasa cina
5.saya tahu memasak
6.saya tak reti bahasa tamil
7.saya suka makan

7 perkara yang menakutkan saya

1.saya takut akan orang marah
2.saya takut akan hantu
3.saya takut akan orang besar
4.saya takut akan bapa saya
5.saya takut akan orang yang garang
6.saya takut akan orang yang ganas
7.saya takut akan hwen hsiao

7 lagu masa kini

1.Tito - Caile
2.RumahHidup - Semuanya
3.T-Sakit - Gereja
4.T-Sakit - Bawah
5.Timbatanah - Datang Semula
6.Chris Coklat - Selamanya
7.Chris Coklat - Cium cium

7 perkataan yang selalu disebut

1.bantai koo
2.ko kenaper?
3.ko ni diam la
4.ko siaper?
5.you giler?
6.eh pundek
7.giler sikit

7 barang yang bernilai

1.hwen hsiao
2.abangku
3.kakakku
4.kawanku
5.bapaku
6.duitku
7.telefonku

7 pengalaman pertama dalam hidup saya

1.buat tag dalam bahasa melayu
2.minum arak
3.pergi clubbing
4.menyani depan ramai orang
5.buat giler
6.buat bodoh
7.memasak

7 orang bertuah

1.hwen hsiao
2.saya
3.saya
4.saya
5.saya
6.saya
7.saya

Judge its book by its cover.

Boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. why everybody is just the same? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. they just like to do that? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. cant they just realise or they are too perfect to realise? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. i guess they are just full with themselves till they forget where they stand? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. people judging one another? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. people looking down on one another? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. people just say it for the fun? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. people just say it because its there? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. why just they get a little mature? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. why everybody is this like? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. if just people understand.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. they would just realise and try to be a little mature? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. maybe they dont even know the pain and the experience? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. they all think its so easy? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. try to think again? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. try to give a little face? boring.. boring.. boring.. maybe effort? boring.. boring.. maybe time? boring.. boring.. boring.. one day they will regret? boring.. boring.. boring.. one day is when? boring.. boring.. boring.. by that time its already too late? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring or maybe it is just doom's day by that time? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. nobody will understand? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. some will but in the end they are all still the same as usual.. boring.. boring.. boring.. so it doesnt even make a difference? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. cant feel pain or sad? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. not a single sense of pain and a single droplet of tears? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. its becoming normal now.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. should have just get used to it since last time.. boring.. boring.. boring.. effort? time? think again? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. what are they? boring.. boring.. boring.. boring.. my blog is boring..