Thursday, July 31, 2008

Randy = Miang?

What Randy Means
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Everything can be done.

There is no such thing in this world saying that we humans are different from one another.. all humans are created by God equally and evenly.. there is no such thing comparing one another because we are all the same.. its just some of us just didnt really take the time and do what we wanna do and end up failing in it and feeling sad and regret and started saying that they suck and they cant do it.. everybody can do anything.. they just need to put thier heart in it and try thier best to do it without knowing the sense of giving up.. we are all the same.. we are all equals.. we are all even.. our attitude and appearence might be different but deep inside our heart and soul we are the same.. God wont be unfair to us creating us to be different that we cant do things that other people can do.. If that person can do it so can you.. the choice is always in your hands to take up the challenge to learn it up anot.. it doesnt matter how tall you are.. it doesnt matter how heavy you are.. it doesnt matter are you good enough.. it doesnt matter anything.. if we just put our effort and heart into doing something.. im sure we can achieve what we wanna achieve in life.. and everything in this world is imposible.. we humans can make things be possible.. the choice is always belongs in our hands.. Good or bad is also in our hands.. its always up to us to make the decision and conclusion of our lifes.. God is just watching us doing it.. and coming to guide us at certain times and at difficult times.. but most of the time its up to your own hands.. own energy.. own effort and own determination.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Always do and always will.

I just have to go on and on with my life and not care less what is happening around me.. thats all i can put in my mind now.. thats all i can do for now.. just let things chill down.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Happiness.

What is happiness? I dont feel happy nowadays.. Its like everything is dissapearing one by one and everyone is leaving one by one.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Lost faith.

Sometimes i really lost my faith on things i do and things i love and things i like.. really.. at times when it really matters.. all the feelings just comes back and i will feel scare or feel like i cant do it like i dont believe in myself enough.. its like im too suck to do it or i cant do it well at all.. but i believe what my brother says and i wanna trust what he says but everytime i do it its like i cant do it at all.. like i cant do it nicely.. then i start losing faith in myself and i thought negatively to myself if i will ever success in this thing im doing.. its just i dunno what to do at times but i try to cool myself down.. and there is like nobody i can talk to about it.. everyone so busy.. everybody not around.. i guess this world is getting busier and busier day by day? Everyone started studying or working.. sometimes i just wish and wish and wish to have someone at home.. but well i have to just accept what i get right? I cant ever complain that its His's fault for not giving me my wish.. at least i got a life than nothing.. its already better than nothing.. I cant blame anyone or anything for this.. All i have to do is tolerate and be patience till the day arrives where it will all fall perfectly into my hands.. Now all i have to do is be patience and keep on doing what im doing and always try to improve myself.. but still i dont have enough faith yet...

Thursday, July 3, 2008

What is done.

Alot of people just become like that without anything happening around them.. they just transform into something unpredictable.. sometimes they ingore you.. sometimes they just behave weird but do you know why they are like that? In my case i dont know about it.. I dont know why it happened.. people just put up that face up and just like that they are like that.. we cant do anything to change it but i still think there is always something we can do to undo or repair what is done.. there is always time for us and there is always choice.. we just need to take the effort to change it am i right? sometimes we try too hard till we dunno why it is like this and when we feel it is like this we intend to feel down or even very moody or sad.. but well we still have to go on with our life right? I feel that people are always changing and also ourselves are also changing.. we just need to tolerate and go with what is changing without feeling anything.. sometimes we may say or feel something but in the end we also have to follow what is happening.. the world is always changing everyone is always changing and all the things are always changing.. we cant do anything about it.. all we can do is just live on.

Lucky 8 tag.

8 things I'm passionate about
Music.
Food.
Friends.
Dota.
Sports.
Clothes.
Shoes.
Hair.

8 things I say or do too often :

I say.

Suck...
You..
Crazyy....
Noooo...

I do.
Nothing..
Stare..
Mingle..
Infest..

8 things I've read recently :
Interesting posts.
Bible.
Friendster.
Facebook.
Messenger.
Messages.
On the walls anywhere.
On the floor anywhere.

8 songs I could listen to over and over again :
Flo-rida - Low
Buckcherry - Sorry
Three Days Grace - Never too late
The Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Tell me baby
Fall Out Boys - Beat it
One Republic - Apologize
Muse - Hysteria

8 people to tag:
None.

School life.

Our school life is only consist of like how many years that we really enjoy with our youth i can say its like from form 1 till form 5 i guess? standard 1 to 6 that time we were just brats and simply goofing around so i cant really say that time is a very fun time? last time i do think primary was nice but when i go up to secondary i see that its better there? like what i said before you never try you never know.. well i feel that after school life its gonna really different like how it was from primary to secondary? we must try to accept somethings in our lifes like how it changes and transform into a new cycle? i think after high school we will not see our friendly neighbourhood that often anymore.. we might even be on our own path ways and after that we might even lose contact that we never see or talk to each other again.. but that can be save i guess? you must always apporoach the person you wanna keep contact with.. like i always tell my older friends.. which are form 5 form 6 and so on.. do not forget me after you leave high school.. i know its different but try to remember me.. how we spend our days together.. it might sound weird but i just wanna keep my friends intact with me all the time.. i feel that after school life.. im gonna be a real loner and i dont expect how am i gonna life alone like this since my family isnt that perfect i feel that my life is gonna be really fill with sorrowness but i also know that on the way of our working life we will still meet new people and make more friends and from there you will get a new cycle of friends and from there your sorrowness will get less and less and it comes to the same as normal but not totally same because working life we wont get to mix and hang out with our friends all the time unlike school we have 6 hours or more with them everyday monday to friday and sometimes weekends we intend to go out with them to somewhere far to enjoy ourselves and also to go crazy.. so i guess even im the type of person who accepts things hardly but still i have to accept whatever comes.. i still dunno where im heading and im on my way to save my studies so im really gonna study hard after today ends when my sickness cures im gonna go after my studies and make it come true which what i say so i dont think i will have much time for anyone anymore.. well i gave up what more i have? hehehehe.

Climax.

There are a lot of things in life we try to do or we always try our best to do until we fall too deep into it.. everything has a start and always an ending.. there is never ending in our lifes.. we must try to accept what is it all about.. come to think of it sometimes we try our best to do something in our life to get what we want we intend to fall and keep on falling.. and after all of it is over we rethink and think that its all silly and pointless.. but well.. i always think that we should keep on trying without knowing the sense of giving up in our life.. but one of my brother told me that.. somethings in life you really need to give up and i always try to not give up so easily but you know what? What he said might be even true.. sometimes you try your best to do something and somehow you will waste your effort and time if the chances is low and you still go after it.. maybe what she said was true.. maybe what he said was true.. said that i cant get means i cant get.. maybe now im starting to realise and agree what she say to me that day.. maybe now i get it what she mean by that.. maybe i get it when everytime i get sounded like that.. maybe its just like this? maybe its not my time yet? maybe im just not suitable yet? or maybe im just not ready yet? All i can do now is wait i think? do whatever is necessary in my life and leave the others i guess? Put what is important ahead of us? and leave what is not important behind us? im just not sure anymore about these things.. all i know is maybe i should just give up.. maybe i should just let go.. maybe i just should let go everything and give up on everything and just go on my own.. i might regret in the future like how i do regret for what i did in my past.. but sometimes you must just give up to regret in the future so that you can learn it and not repeat it in the future? Im just not that sure anymore.. I wish the answer was more clearer so i can see where im going.. but when i see the way it goes the flow it goes.. with what it comes back to me.. i really feel that its gonna be a failure? I guess its gonna be this way? And i cant do anything about it ? Maybe im just too young or brat to do all those? I guess so... Im giving up...